only half enjoyable

My brother Doug lives in Arizona and my brother Zach is in another country being a marine or at least that's his story, so when zach took leave to hang out with Doug and his family we crashed the party. We were all having a great time and even got the spend the day on the lake in a real boat something I've never done before, and why you might ask have I never done this before partly because it's way too expensive and mostly because I am terrified of large bodies of water. I know right how can I grow up in southern California and not love the ocean, well I love the ocean just not being in it or lakes or rivers or basically anything that I can drowned in. However I am very easily pressured so I went on the boat and tried to put on a happy face just so my kids and their cousins wouldn't thing I'm lame. My niece and nephew had a blast on the tube, they loved it they were the first ones to go out and they went the most times so I figured if a 7 and a 5 year old weren't scared how can I be so I did it for exactly 2 and a half minuets before I gave the thumbs down, but the important thing to remember here is that I did it.

look how much fun they are having I guess I better at least try it
nope they were wrong not fun at all

this is me almost in tears because I realized that my fate was in the hands of the three men controlling the boat and tube that were staring at me laughing and that one of these men was my husband who probably would have left me out there longer claiming I was having fun and just didn't know it at the time, another who tortured me growing up having fun just making me among other siblings cry and one who still hasn't gotten back at me for putting makeup on him when we were kids, I was terrified!
Luckily they pulled me back in and didn't make fun of me too much.

I still had fun though, watching everyone else have fun.